[ Wednesday, November 13, 2002 ]

 
   

Mood: Mentally Sick
Music: Sarah Brightman- Only an Ocean Away

I feel sick. Mentally....physically....I don't know how much longer I can last. My mom has cancer. We found out last week. The tumor's small and they should be able to get it out without much difficulty....but it's cancer....the word is so scary that once you hear it, your mind doesn't focus on anything else. Especially if someone you love gets it. My grandpa...my 2 uncles...I thought that my family had done their dues with cancer...I thought it never happen. So much that I never even thought of it when she went in to get tests done. Then my dad called and told me. I stayed on the phone talking to my dad for a few minutes...but after we hung up the crying started. My mom's been telling me she'll be ok...she "plans to be one of the survivors." But I don't feel comforted...not when I hear her crying in the next room afterwards. I need my psychiatrist back. *sigh* I feel sick.

    Lar [1:17 AM]

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