[ Friday, June 13, 2003 ]

 
   

Mood: Depressed
Music: -None-

I just don't know what's wrong with me anymore. I was sitting at the comp, talking to Alan, and all of a sudden I started crying. I don't know why....I just did. I couldn't stop either...I just cried. I left and sat on my bed, and just everything that was sad in my life flooded to me all at once and I just relived everything that was painful. Like a horrible nightmare, except I was awake. Merf....I miss Slady so much....I have nothing to cuddle anymore. Skittles isn't a cuddly kitty...she refuses to sleep on anyone. She can barely stand to be held most of the time. I barely ever do anything with my friends...mainly because I don't have many. The ones I do have are always busy when I call or aren't home....and they usually don't get my message or don't call back. I don't feel like making new friends, honestly, because I feel as if I'm not good enough to be their friend. Hell...I feel I'm not good enough to be my friends' friend now. I miss A.J. terribly....which goes without me even having to say it. *sigh* I can't wait to get out of this place........I want to start over.

    Lar [12:06 AM]

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